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This world is fucked-up…. but i am thankful i have Him.

January 9, 2010

There are many types of people in this world, The good, the bad, the ugly and then there’s the………….. FUCKING PERVERSE PEOPLE. How can anyone survive 44 days of torture?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?! i think i one week give way already…… but she survived all the horror, the torture, the helplessness, and the thought of just wanting to end her life because she was undergoing SO MUCH misery. Her name is Junko Furuta. She is a japanese. And she was an innocent victim of INEVITABLE MURDER.

The sad thing is that the FUCKING BOYS WHO HAVE NO HEART OR ANYTHING CLOSE TO A CONSCIENCE only served his time for 8 BLOODY YEARS. WHY? BECAUSE HE WAS A JUVENILE THEN……….. I DUNNO, MAYBE THEY HAVE DAMN GOOD LAWYERS IN JAPAN, OR THE JUDGE IS IMMUNE TO FEELINGS, OR THEY PRACTICE BLACK MAGIC, THEY ESCAPED EVERYTHING. NOT EVEN CANING, OR HALF OF THE TORTURE THEY DID TO THE GIRL WAS INFLICTED ON THEM. THIS IS SO !@#$%^&*() UNFAIR.

she suffered for 44 days. 44 EFFING DAYS OF HOT WAX ON YOUR LEGS, BODY, FOREIGN OBJECTS INSERTED IN YOUR VAGINA, FIRE BURNING YOUR LEG UNTIL IT TURNED CHARCOAL AND TENDER FLESH IS SHOWN. NOT ONLY THAT, THE FUCKING BOYS WHO HAVE PEA-SIZED BRAINS AND SMALL BEADY EYES PINCHED THE RAW WOUND. PINCHED AS IN TAKING A GOOD CLUMP OF SKIN AND TWISTING IT WITHOUT MERCY. TOUCHING THE WOUND IS ALREADY GONNA HURT LIKE SHIT, PINCHING?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!??!!? WHAT THE HELL KIND OF DEPRAVED THOUGHTS ARE GOING THROUGH THEIR HEAD?!?!?!?!??!

There is no excuse for doing this. claiming insanity, feeling alone coz your girlfriend left you, abandoned or abused as a kid….. WHATEVER. any sane person will stop and admit they were wrong after a while. BUT NO, THEY CONTINUED ON FOR 44 DAYS, AND EVEN ON THE DAY OF HER DEATH THEY TORMENTED HER. THEY NEVER LET HER GET TO SEE HER PARENTS FOR A MONTH. NO ONE CAME TO LOOK FOR HER. NO ONE BOTHERED TO THINK THAT SHE IS IN TROUBLE. HER PARENTS LEFT IT AS THAT WHEN SHE CALLED SAYING SHE IS RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME. IF YOU ARE A PARENT WON’T U FEEL WORRIED AS TO WHY UR DAUGHTER IS SUDDENLY LEAVING YOU?! WON’T U TRY TO FIND OUT?!?!?!??!?!

This incident happened over 20 years ago…………… i wasn’t even born yet…………. everyday, i live my life happy-go-luckily……. i thought of skipping class, thinking about what to eat. MEANINGLESS THOUGHTS RUN THROUGH MY HEAD DAILY. But as EACH AND EVERY DAY hold a special meaning for someone other then you. somebody may have died on that day and no one cared, somebody may have lost someone close and is grieving, and no know. Some body is contemplating death and no one knows until the last moment where they all cry and regret not knowing. Everyday holds a special meaning to someone in some way. If i continue living like that, when i die, i am not gonna have accomplish anything in my pathetic life.

Until now, i am still thinking if she was saved………. Why God, why…………………… I know in order to find out the answer i know i must read the Bible, but ………….. WHY…………….. maybe this is not the full story, maybe she was a bitch and everybody hated her and the boys were just doing them a favor………….. But no one deserves to be treated this way, no matter how shitty they are. 44 days of pure torture…………… They did not even relent one bit, not letting her see her parents for the last time, just allowing her to be their live toy and mock her with sexual taunting and lots of physical pain inflicted on her. Why wasn’t she saved?? Why do the FUCKING BOYS do not have God in their hearts?? I cannot take for granted that singapore is a safe place and nothing will happen to me………………… BOYS THINK ALL SORTS OF CRAP IN THEIR HEADS. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. Living is a wonderful and blessed thing……. But we are so filled with superficial thoughts, they just drag us away from our main purposes in life…………….

I wanna do my part in helping but i dun even know my Bible…………… do i still have the knowledge and power to help others?? Why in Japan such a advanced country can produce such FUCKTARDS like them?? People who submit themselves to momentary torture (like slitting their wrists), WHAT IS THE POINT. IF U WANT REAL PAIN TO FORGET ABOUT UR MINOR PROBLEMS, U TRY BEING TORTURED FOR 44 DAYS, I SEE IF NEXT TIME U WILL WANT TO SLIT AGAIN OR NOT. So many things happen around me everyday, and yet all i can think about is “whether i will have enough money for next week or not” “OOO, THAT GUY IS SO HANDSOME” ” BLOODY TEACHER MAKE ME DO SO MUCH WORK”……………. I REALIZE I M SO DAMN SELF-CENTERED. FUCKING SELF-CENTERED TO THE MAX.

I cussed like nobody’s business in this post, i shall apologize later.

Please take away whoever is feeling any pain right now, Lord…………. i am happy, and i want as many people to be happy too……. i sound so saint and all, but i m scared…………… scared of this world’s cruelty, scared of my lack of faith, scared of the people close to me are going through any of the crap in this world. i know through obstacles, u make us stronger, but that girl suffered for nothing…………….. This is crap……….Please God, i pray that u will work in those boy’s hearts………. inevitable murder is still murder, they did not literally kill her, but they did AWFUL, TERRIBLE things that led to her death…………….. Let them wake up from their EFFING DREAM and make them new again……………….. Just like u purged that lady’s body from spirits and SATAN. They are screaming for your love God………….

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